A Different Lunch Setting

Friday, 15 April 2005

As I sat in the sparse shade a little way off from the playful dancing fountain at KLCC park, I fought hard to keep the tears from welling in my eyes. My favourite dreamy tune did its best to sooth the ache in my chest. I speared the chunks of guava in my hand absently, robotically feeding myself.

"It's YOU who started all this in the first place!" Echoed my dad's brief outburst.

My parents feel left out of the loop with all the wedding preparations underway. Yet they haven't made the move to help reconcile with my in-laws--it won't work the other way round, because it's evident that my parents still have a lot of pride left in them. If my in-laws were to call them instead, it wouldn't make any sense, since it's my parents who were against the marriage in the first place. I asked if dad would speak to my in-laws directly instead of having me mediate all the time, to avoid miscommunications (we've had plenty of that already), and that was when he lost his cool.

"What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you? You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures."

James 4:1-3

I want to live my life well. My parents do too, and we both have our prerequisites to being happy. We all want different things. It's human. It's normal.

Miracles, however, happen when differences are set aside in the name of winning peace for all--and that's facilitated by God. He gives us the gifts, but it's up to us to choose whether or not to exercise them. We are still responsible for our actions.

Anyway.

Today, during my lunch hour, I
a) spent it outdoors in the KLCC park.
b) noted that the water fountain was dancing in time to the rhythm of my favourite dreamy tune (which I kept playing over and over again).
c) watched swiftlets skim the surface of the lake for a drink.
d) soaked in the heat and basked in the strong sunshine.
e) ate 2 pieces of roti canai with mild dhal curry.

I walked back to the office feeling better (especially after Han called to comfort me--thanks sweetie).

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